Compassion and/or Forgiveness?

I'm having a grown woman issue this week!! Can we prosper in life without compassion and forgiveness? Can we prosper without offering compassion and forgiveness to ourselves? Alot of doubt and fear creeps into my thoughts because I think in my small mind, I havent honestly forgiven myself which means I can't honestly forgive others. That's terrible because due to God's mercy and grace he has forgiven us all for our mistakes. Can people honestly forgive others as Christ has forgiven us? Maybe not, but in my heart that's what I want to do for myself and wish I could be granted the same to people I have hurt or who are hurting. That's my prayer for this week. I stepping into uncharter waters but I know that God's grace and mercy are guiding me. I also know and believe that he can change things and do the impossible. Well a few of these mountains that I face, I have let fear creep in and believe that change is impossible. Well as long as we have breath in our bodies, the Lord can definately change things, people, minds and lives. I'm stepping out on faith, hanging on the limb believing and praying that he will change some hearts and mine also in the process. Deep huh??? Grown woman!!!!!!!!!!! In the words of Keri Hilson, "you betta recognize a REAL WOMAN!".......

Inspiration

These last two weeks have been so busy for me. With work, school with the girls, field trips etc. I have been swamped. On top of that it has been raining off and on for the last month and I truly think it has been wrecking my mood!!!! I'm looking for some inspiration, something to set my dreams and goals in order. Maybe I need to work on my inspiration board a little. Get my creative juices going. I haven't been journaling lately either and that usually helps me free my mind. One pleasure that I've had lately was meeting with my bookclub on last Friday. I tell you the Babylon Sista's were in full effect and we had a complete ball. It's just great to get together over good food, wine, a good book and some really good girlfriends to feel complete happiness and joy! We just had good intelligent conversations which is so freeing for me. The poem by Maya Angelou comes to mind when I think of my "sistas", "Phenomenal Woman" comes to mind when I think of us.

Monday blues!

Monday morning is rapidly approaching! I have a few project to get done so I'm trying to clear my mind now. I managed to go to 8'clock service this morning so this afternoon is all mine for a little R&R. I have until 6:00, that's when the girls are expected back.

TGIF

It is Friday!!! This week has been pretty busy but I can say, it was a good week. My meeting on Monday went well. Jury duty on yesterday! My plan for this weekend is to get some yard work done. I'm going to buy some fertilizer and buy some flowers for my pots. I may even buy a few herbs and place them in my kitchen window. That's a little Michelle inspired :). I'm planning to have a nice relaxing weekend. I also want to fix up my desk, make a little corner for myself.

Grown Woman

Okay if I'm going to be the grown woman I claim to be I must use my voice. Today I have a meeting scheduled with the director of my company regarding our proposed time changes. When I enter this meeting I'm speaking as a single parent, standing up for my daughters as well as the sanity of my mind. In the past no one ever spoke up for "us" the women and men as far as that goes who are not officers and for some reason no one else saw the benefit of having a happy support staff. With that said, again, I'm going in speaking from my point of view, not requesting preferential treatment but just consideration. We will see what happens. Either way it goes, I spoke up as a grown woman!!!! If I don't will I be able to look at myself in the mirror??

TGIF

It is Friday!!!! I'm looking forward to some real relaxing and getting my head on straight for next week. This week has been long for me.

Goals!

I have been so off track this week. I guess it takes about a week to recover from vacation. I'm contemplating some things and I need to get focused. I think I'm going to write down a 6 month goal plan because I definately have somethings that I want and need to do within the next 6 months which will help me with my long term goals. Focus, focus. One thing would be, CAN I PLEASE GET UP ON TIME AND OUT OF THE DOOR! That would be a good start because I have been rushing every morning this week.

Reality

Well, we are back from spring break and reality has set in. We were all back to school and to work today. We had a blast last week, NASA was awesome. My problem now is I need a little rest!!!!

Spring Break 2009

Well it is Friday and we are almost at the end of Spring Break 2009! We have had a ball so far. We went to the Dallas Museum of Art on Monday to see the King Tut exhibit. It was very nice. We had lunch at the West End, went to the Farmers Market. We had a full day to say the least. On Tuesday was the movies, Wednesday Chuck E. Cheese. Needless to say it was packed. Yesterday we went to Celebration Station for a birthday party and then to Disney on Ice. Kayla and Bria loved it. Well what I said I wasn't going to do, we will do today. Our family road trip! We are going to NASA again this year. We are riding with Jennifer and her crew. When we went last year we didn't see the full exhibit so I'm cool with going again. Plus Kayla and Bria loved it and was so fascinated by it. They are going to pass out when they find out we are going! This is sure to be another episode of "Are We There Yet?" We are going to stay with my cousin Howard so it will be fun..............

Spring Break 2009

Well it is finally here!!!!!! It is another rainy day but our spring break starts today at 5:00!!!! I am so happy! I have alot of fun things planned for our urban spring break. No travel this year. We are saving that plan for the summer. TGIF!!!

Dreaming

It's cold and rainy today. I am so much dreaming of a nice little get away to the BIG EASY!!! Shop a little, eat some good gumbo, have a nice margarita..............

Day Light Savings Time

LORD, this time change is about to kill me!!!! I feel soooooooooo sleepy. I have been groggy for the past two days. This morning I slept .30 minutes past my normal wake up time! Rushing!!! Maybe by Friday I will be okay.

A new week

I ran across this creed by the great Frederick Douglass----

" I believe-I believe in myself and my ability to do my best, for this day will not come anymore. I will think, I will listen, I will read, and I will write. I will do all these things with one purpose in mind. To not waste this day. For this day will not come anymore".

Isnt that beautiful and mind awakening??? I love that and I think this will be my mantra for the week. This is my last work week and my girlies last school week before spring break. With that said, I think we should really make this a productive week.

Can I get my groove back???

Last night I think I had a "aha moment". As most of you know I closed on my first home in August 2008. On the 22nd of this month we will have been here for 6 months. To be honest I had not emotionally attached to my home. I was just living. I think I had been so conditioned to believe that I could not do this, or do that, even when I was doing it, in my mind, I still felt like something was going to happen and someone would take it from me or someone would awake me from my dream. Okay I think that was a run on sentence.... Anyway I'm finally becoming comfortable saying it's okay, it is my home, this is my life and I can be happy and rejoice in it!!! Last night I was looking for a silver purse I had bought last summer. I still have boxes and bags in my garage that I need to unpack and organize. Still afraid to live. Well, I went out and starting digging in those bags finding all of my pretty stuff and I just felt happy!!! You could not tell me I had not been to the Galleria for a day full of shopping. I found four brand new pairs of dress sandles I have never worn, I found my purse still in the Dillards bag. I bought all of that stuff in and tried my shoes on, looked at my pretty legs and thought about how I was going to look when I step in each of them. Oh yes, I did say pretty legs! I just felt so happy, I started organizing my closet, put my shoe rack up and stack my shoes!!!!! It was all of 11:00 pm on a Wednesday night! I think I just might be getting my groove back!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

New experiences #2

I'm at work but I'm busy trying to get out of here to get my oldest daughter home early. Tomorrow Kayla will be taking her first TAKS test which is required in Texas to pass to the next grade. Naturally my baby is smart :) but I want to make sure she is prepared due to a nice dinner, relaxing night and a good breakfast in the morning. Therefore, I'm on my Mommie mission!!!! I'm also going to the zoo with Bria tomorrow, busy, busy! After tomorrow, we can start dreaming of Spring Break 2009!!!!

Dreams of my home

Isn't this table setting pretty! This was in Z Galleries. This would be a nice place to have a cup of coffee on a Saturday morning, maybe read the newspaper and what about Saturday night with a glass of wine and a good book!

Welcome to the weekend!

The weekend is coming!

You know what that means. A little R&R PLEASE!!!

New experiences

Last night I stepped out of my comfort zone. I went to the Alvin Ailey Dance performance at the Bass Hall in Ft. Worth. The step out point was that I went all by myself and I had a absolutely fabulous time!!!! I tried to get someone to go with me but everyone was either not interested, too much money, in Ft. Worth, on a Tuesday night, etc., etc. I wanted to go bad so I just decided to make a GROWN WOMAN move and go by myself. I tell you that was the best decision I could have made. I purchased a box seat and picked my ticket up at willcall. One of the great things about the night was the Bass Hall!! That place is BEAUTIFUL!!! It was easy access, the parking was great and free. The box seat was perfect. There were 6 other people sitting there and they were all very friendly. Especially the older couple (in their 80's). The lady told me that I was just so pretty to her :). The performance was out of site dynamite!!!! I loved every moment. I just do believe I was a dancer living in New York in my past life!! What was so funny and great was how empowered I felt!!!!! I had a great time never once feeling lonely or that I needed a man or a girlfriend with me. I was just at peace, full of joy enjoying a great night!!!! You know everyone must do the solo thing, you will definately find out a little something about yourself. I also purchased a t-shirt since it was their 50th anniversary. I will post a picture when I figure out how to do it......